xxxmidnightsummerxx

Yeah....so it's after midnight which means Valentine's Day is over. Thank the Gods! I have to say that this year has been the hardest on me, with not having someone to "be mine". And I wasn't around friends today to joke about being single on Single Awareness Day.....so it was even worse....I woke up today just wanting to cry....Then my mom tells me were going out to dinner tonight as a family (my mom, my aunt, my brother, my niece and nephew, and me) and I was like 'Oh goody I don't get to see friends cause we need family time'. I know I shouldn't be hard on my family its probably as hard on them as it is me....but today I just couldn't stop remembering him and how he chose her over me, and she did the same. At Sizzlers I saw this cute old couple I wish I was them....They were happy. And since I got home I've been working on my V-Day presents to my 3 best friends (which are going to be late because it's taking longer then I thought it would) and listen to my I'tunes....I started to cry at ever song that came on that I used to listen to with my ex...so I avoided Breathe Carolina, David Guetta, T. Mills, and Falling In Reverse.....Yet I keep listen to sappy love songs and wishing those words will come true. I have to say the only people that keep me going today were Michael Jackson, Darren Criss, Taylor Swift, Nick Pitera, Adele, Jim and the Povolos, Katy Perry, Lady Gaga, Fall Out Boy, Disney Music, and Glee Music (even though I resent the show only cause I wish my high school had a glee club so I had something that would have made me feel like I fit in with something when I was in high school). So it's been a shitty valentines day for me...The only thing that made me really smile today was my BFF Molly making me a Valentine's Card and putting it on the Internet....I just wish I could find that cute Adorkable guy who likes to dress somewhat different to avoid wearing the same t-shirt as someone else, likes to wear bow ties (because they are cool), can sing, play piano and/or guitar, and will call me beautiful and pretty instead of hot and sexy. maybe one day I will find him.....hopefully....but for now I am forever alone..... </3

so me and my boyfriend are no longer together thanks to my back stabbing ex best friend...sorry but i am goin to keep this short and say i am not happy and i miss him

So I am falling in love with my boyfriend....i already fell for him now its just more serious.....and i find out he loves someone else....i have no clue why hes dating me then but sometimes I hope that I can change his feelings and some how make him fall for me....I know that i care so much about him that I will not and refuse to be the one who will break this relationship off.....
Ok before you start to hate the guy please read this:
When I am with him he makes me the happiest person in the world. I feel like nothing can bring me down. When i have to say good bye for the night it kills me cause I just want to be with him and make him happy. I love when i wake up to a text saying "good morning babe" it makes my day. And when he sings to me in his care i swear my tummy has butterflies. I know he cares about me because over the weekend I had an asthma attack caused by my friend pushing me in the pool and i sank so fast i hit my chest on the bottom. He wanted to punch the guy because he got scared that I was going to die. Then that night i had an emotional meltdown over the death of my bff who dies 6 years ago...because i missed her so badly and he came in can comforted me. He is the most perfect guy for me. We have so much in common and he even likes anime (which is a win in my book) not only is he really cute and good looking but what draws me in the most is his eyes and his personality.
But unfortunately he has no self esteem (like me :/) and doesnt find himself attractive in any way (like i do :/)
And when i see comments that involve things like "Moving down with my future wife and her bestie" on facebook hurts me and makes me think that he is going to dump me in the future after working up all these feeling for him.........I will not leave him because i care sooooo much about him.....but i am scared now....
I really want to say that i love him but i feel like that is way to much for the relationship right now.....but when the time comes i know that i can say it with confidence even going through this extreme emotional bump in the road.....
Thank you for reading i really just need someplace to let it all out with out my family seeing and getting all up in my business
~Midnightsummer

i feel bad. i have not been on here in like a year other then quick checks and replys. -.- i have been really busy since it was my last year of high school now that that is over i am happy haha. no i have to say i did not go to anime expo 2011....sadly it sucked alot. but i went to warped tour instead and had a blast. so nect order of business i am goin to be planing with some people on cosplays that i will wear for anime expo 2012 and any other cons i go to that i can lol. i have a few in line so if u have an idea for something i should do tell me and i will see if i can lol. i will also be doing things with a few of my friends on youtube...not sure when but i will haha. so this is just a quick update. oh and if you see me and want to say hi i have a newish nickname its noir. ya i know what it means but i like it. lol so for now good bye
~Nori

so xmas was fun except for a few minor disasters....family problems.....dont really want to get into it....lets just say i cried and a friend helped my though it....

well for the most part i had fun. on xmas eve my family was over and we had a good time since their was a turkey and 2 roasts cooked. we were all in food comas lol. i got to open a few presents that night becoz my brothers gf and uncle was their and wanted to see the reactions. i have now some cute shirts an awsome old pictures in a frame. to unicorns and a cheetah.

xmas morning was good i got woken up by my lil cousins who were really excited that santa came. im the one that unloads the tree and hands out presents. lol. i also let them open theirs first.

when i finaly got around to opening mine i got some kool stuff. i got a computer game that im not sure i quite like yet....its called F.A.M.P. still tryin to figure it out.....then i got a new moon game...ya i like twilight but only the books...they kinda ruined the movies....but oh well ill play it lol. i got an oil burning set which i like and some more makeup XD....but the ones i like the most are my art manikin (u know the wooden ones that stands on ur desk) and a digital camera! im happy with it...of corse i got more but im not wanting to tell u all bout it lol. oh but i will say i am really happy i got the last percy jackson book and the percy jackson movie....XD love my mythology!!!



and sorry ive taken so long to respond...havnt really been in the mood to talk....still tryin to get over a few things